I have been putting off this post for some strange reason. I guess I'm a little anxious about what tomorrow holds.
It is the beginning of a new chapter for our family. Mommy is going back to work.
I have a whole mix of emotions about our decision.
Part of me is excited to have something outside of the home again. It will allow me to use all of the skills I learned prior to being a mommy, contribute to our family finances and get in some serious "adult" time.
The other (bigger) part of me is worried I won't be able to balance being the kind of mom I want to be with the responsibilities I'll have to work. I hate that when they fall and get hurt, I might not be there to pick them up and tell them everything will be ok. I hate that I may not notice a new freckle right away or be there to answer the 100 "why" questions they will ask throughout the day! I guess I just hate that I will miss out on some of the tiny treasures that make being a mom so amazing - simply because I won't be with my kids as much.
I know in the long run this is a good decision for our family. As much as I would love to stop it - they are growing up and becoming less dependent on me. I'm actually really proud of that fact. 9 times out of 10 my kids enter a new situation with confidence and even excitement. I think this enthusiasm for life speaks volumes about how Scott and I have raised them up to this point. I know they are ready for this new chapter.
But, all of those affirmations don't change the fact that I will miss my babies.
Eden and Levi, I promise I will always be your mommy first. No amount of work outside of the home will ever compare (even for a second) to the joy I find in being your mommy. You are my greatest work and I thank God everyday for blessing me with your sweet little lives.
Mommy loves you to Pluto and back...
It is the beginning of a new chapter for our family. Mommy is going back to work.
I have a whole mix of emotions about our decision.
Part of me is excited to have something outside of the home again. It will allow me to use all of the skills I learned prior to being a mommy, contribute to our family finances and get in some serious "adult" time.
The other (bigger) part of me is worried I won't be able to balance being the kind of mom I want to be with the responsibilities I'll have to work. I hate that when they fall and get hurt, I might not be there to pick them up and tell them everything will be ok. I hate that I may not notice a new freckle right away or be there to answer the 100 "why" questions they will ask throughout the day! I guess I just hate that I will miss out on some of the tiny treasures that make being a mom so amazing - simply because I won't be with my kids as much.
I know in the long run this is a good decision for our family. As much as I would love to stop it - they are growing up and becoming less dependent on me. I'm actually really proud of that fact. 9 times out of 10 my kids enter a new situation with confidence and even excitement. I think this enthusiasm for life speaks volumes about how Scott and I have raised them up to this point. I know they are ready for this new chapter.
But, all of those affirmations don't change the fact that I will miss my babies.
Eden and Levi, I promise I will always be your mommy first. No amount of work outside of the home will ever compare (even for a second) to the joy I find in being your mommy. You are my greatest work and I thank God everyday for blessing me with your sweet little lives.
Mommy loves you to Pluto and back...
